Lisa-Jo
offers the challenge week after week: take a measly five minutes and write. No
over thinking, no backtracking, no ‘wait, that’s not spiritual enough, and I
can’t share that in cyber city’ mentality. Only writing. Writing for five
minutes and risking the outcome. This week’s prompt- HERE
Ready? GO!
What choice
do I have? Can I live anywhere but in the HERE
and the NOW? I can’t go back to two
years ago. I can’t change the past as much as I desire to. As much as I wish I was
there to help her. As desperate as I am to talk with her, give her a hug, tell
her how our lives are and how much we miss her. No, I can’t and this is THE WAY
God has chosen it to be. His WAY is the only WAY and how dare I wish for
anything different. So, I live HERE, NOW. I choose not to dwell in the past but I thank God for past memories.
I thank God that right NOW I have
family, friends, health, a husband that truly does and would do all he is
capable of doing for me, our kids, and His Lord. I thank God that even when
looking back hurts, and looking forward hurts more because I know she’s not
there, I have what is HERE; I have
what exists right NOW.
I want desperately
to make the most of it! I want to capture this place, this moment, this season
and inhale every ounce of life. YES, I MISS HER! And no, I can’t believe it’s
been two years! But our life doesn’t cease because a loved one draws their last
breath. Our world keeps spinning and our calendars continue filling and we
continue on HERE.
STOP
Brethren, I do not count myself to
have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind
and reaching forward to those things which are ahead. I press toward the goal
for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. –Phil 3:13-14
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Right. "Here"...Now. It's what matters. May He honor your heart cry.
ReplyDeleteThanks sweetie. Very inspirational. Needed to hear this today. Love you!!!
ReplyDelete"I choose not to dwell in the past but I thank God for past memories" That's just it, the only way to live HERE, NOW. Wonderful stuff, friend. (You beat me to it this week!)
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